So we're out of winter. Out of the hibernation so to speak... A hibernation from the outside world that extends beyond the borders of Richmond. Of work and home. Not that do nothing else but last night made me kinda realise it. I went to the Arcadia for a few quiet ones last night. I haven't been out down that way in god knows how long. Its good to see how the other half live. From the old and grungy to bright lights, cover bands, pool tables, excess advertising and pretty women.... I actually kinda enjoyed myself......
Friday night was mega busy at the pub. I ran around endlessy keeping the place in order and getting everything done that needed to be done. The function room was full with people all dressed in 70's gear. After the comedy finished for the night i had to move furniture and set up the DJ which also included finding the right cabling/wiring to get it all going. Time consuming....
Saturday night i did my now usual DJ thing. 6 hours of playing music. Which i suppose is good, i mean its good money and i get to just sit there and play music i love.. Wasn't as tedious as it normally is this time round, despite being a queit night......
....Now once again theres that repeating dilema in my head that cry's CHANGE, CHANGE, CHANGE..... Where do i go from here..... I need a new dream, a new adventure. A different routine.
Don't get me wrong. I love what i do. But i can't do it forever. I like the social aspect and yes i do work hard. There are moments when it feels worthwhile and others when it feels a waste of time. Yin and Yang... The weekend comes and my nights become longer and longer and my days shorter and shorter. The excess alcohol and ciggaretets don't do me any good. But still it's fun..
I feel a need obtain some kind of ability to be able to reach out into the unknown and not get caught up in my every day comfort zone..
I spent yesterday and this morning roaming in circles. Not just around the house from one room to the other but also in my head. My thoughts...... Stuck in a moment of frustration and self pity....
I moved my computer downstairs. Perhaps i would get something done then. a change of location. So i've been sorting through piles and piles of cd's. dvd's etc. What to keep, what to throw out???
Tonight? Parents for dinner perhaps. Might go for a run as well. Just so it feels like i've made an effort to feel healthy.... Was considering a swim but its now 5.30 pm and the pool is annoying with to many people around...
Oh and only a month to go until i take some tim eoff work. Brisbane, Sydney and Adelaide. Some good music and a catch up with old freinds.. Think i'm looking forward to it..
