I've taken a step back the last few days. Feeling a bit off colour i've spent the last day out in the Burbs. Peaceful. Good to not even think about My fast paced life. To ignore work. I hang out today, watched TV, read the paper and got fish n chips for dinner from the local shop... Just like it used to be. I miss it from time to time. Being home brings back alot of memory's of my growing up. Things from my past that haven't crossed my mind in some time...

Where i was then and where i though was going put alot of current things into perspective. Is it time to throw it all in and move on??


And then there's a certain concert tour that's been postponed. I'd booked my flights, organised accomodation, either hotels or with friends, and have been looking forward to only only the time off work but seeing these gigs. Music that I love so much. A break from the monotony that surely is needed at the moment.

But it's kinda selfish to get upset. The reasons for U2's postponement far more important than me getting annoyed about missing out, especially after all the anticipation.. Flights and all that have been easily fixed anyway. I'm still going to take a little holiday to Adelaide to see Aldrich.

I hope later in the year they reschedule.

As I helped my parents organise where to stay in London for their upcoming overseas trip it all came back to me. As if i was still there. Walking along the Thames on a nice day, drinking a Pint in the West End, knowing what bus to catch to get to whatever part of town. I really want to go back... That was then. A time when I couldn't see where'd I'd be right now. That didn't matter. It was all about living in the moment and sucking in every last inch of fresh air that surrounded me.

The past few years since coming back have been wonderful. Settling into a good job with good friends. But now I'm 28 and it's feels like change is due again. I need it once more as things are becoming stale. It's hard to envision in my head anything else and I don't know where I'll be in a years time. That kind of scares me.

But i know something else is out there. Something just as good. I just need to take a leap of faith.....