Radiohead has been cancelled tonight. Tom unable to sing due to a fucked voice.
They also played Rod Laver last night but my turn was tonight.

About 1pm this arvo I got the call from a friend to tell me the show was a no go, herself finding out from someone whom had been already waiting in line. I was on my way in to the venue...

Not happy.

Looking forward to this for so long. The one band I've never seen, whom for so long have been high on my wishlist of bands to see....

Let down and hanging around..
I'm not here this is not happening...
High and Dry.
Fade out again

Nice Dream............................

A night at home.. Rare..

Friday night turned out to be huge, firstly dinner in Brunswick St then onto Polly for some expensive but amazing cocktails. Stuff the fruity ones gimme as potent as you can get. Then to the Evelyn to see Hamo's band.... Once again ended up at the Termy, even my nights off are spent there. Shots, Scotch and whatever else. Apparently i was funny??? Left with Kendall around close. It's all a blur.....

Nick's wedding Saturday night was great. Good vibe and great food. All the old crew together again. Seems like the only time we catch up these days is at weddings. The original plan was to go to over 28's afterwards, ended up at the Perceveirence in Brunswick St. Didn't stay long...

Worked Sunday night, Pub was dead so closed early....

Radiohead tomorrow night, am sooo pumped. Can't wait. Operation get Bo out of work early is in full effect. I want to get there as early as possible to secure a decent posi on the floor.

3am................................

Winding down after yet another nightshift at work. Responsible for closing. I am nocturnal.

The next week and half will be pretty much similar. At least i get my days to do whatever. So many different people come and go at work. Bingo tonight had the front bar together in a happy vibe. Sat down for a quick smoke break with a couple of familar termy locals..... Few girls filmed me on a camera then insisted on giving my phone number into the lense. So drunk by close they became a tad annoying. They'll probably have memory loss tomorrow.... Dealing with drunk people takes work.

Not all people are annoying though.

It's a job of so many brief encounters. One person comes and goes, then the next comes along. Everyone leaves at the end of the night. I stay on to close. Drive home in the quiet of the night alone.

Think I'll nod off to a dvd again.....

For the first time since starting work feels a little like routine. Maybe I just miss so many of my friends and family I'm losing touch with. But that's growing up.. Moving on...

My new extended family is now the Termy. But I've made so many more new freinds here. Enjoying almost every moment. This is my current phase in life.

Things seem alot different this year. People moving on. Mick's getting married next week. Andy and Tim expecting any day... Where am I at?? The same place in some ways, somewhere else in others. Still single... Potentials come and go.

I'm listening to some INXS as i write this. Was also watching the 91 Wembly DVD earlier today.... Hutch truly was an amazing talent.

Climbing as we fall
We dare to hold on to our fate
And steal away our destiny
To catch ourselves with quiet grace

Storey to storey
Building to building
Street to street
We pass each other on the stairs

Listened to by the walls
We share the same spaces
Repeated in the corridors
Performing the same movements

Ok think I'll sit down and write something again ( I know you'll be pleased with this Sticks)..............

Work is still going well, actually It's great, even with the long hours and late nights.... I have today off which is nice though..

It was St Pats day on Wednesday, that day of the year when everyone Irish and those not even close to being Irish jump on the Paddywagon and celebrate. People who would never touch Guinness all of a sudden to decide to give it a go. I was supposed to work Wednesday night but managed to get Bo to fill in for me as it's one day of the year i don't like to miss out on. After the hourlong staff meeting at work I downed a few pints myself and then headed to the Dan O'Connell. Every eyar they close of the park beside the pub and fill it with makeshift bars and have a large stage for entertainment. The price seems to go up every year. $12 to get in this year, but hey, they get the numbers and it seems the place to be on the day. I'd say it was well worth it. With bands playing all day, The Australian U2 Show headlined, playing the setlist from the Slane DVD. With the park full to the brim, the crowd was singing along and really getting into it. Had an awesome time.

Ended up at Bimbo's at about 1am, had one CC and dry and was well and truly ready top go home. Only after a souva from down the road......

I awoke early the next day and with my car still at work had no way to get there. Public transport from Tempe is frustrating and while a cab an easy option, it's also an expensive one. I thought of trying Simon, whom I'd been out with the night before. No way he was going to be ontime for work, and gave him a call at around 9. Managed to scam a lift into the city with him. This gave me two or so hours to kill before getting the tram straight to the pub for work. Sat down to a great fry up at some little cafe in Swanston St and downed a few coffees to get me going for the day. Tired and hangover but still enjoying being in town. Been awhile since I've been in there during a work day. The place is a buzz. At one stage a couple of guys carrying massive backpacks and other carry bags (obviously backpackers) asked for directions. It wasn't that long ago I was doing the same thing on the other side of the world. I miss it. I do love meeting travellers over here. We get a few in our pub from time to time.

Weekend plans? Going out tonight for a friends farewell. Managed to get one of the girl's to fill in for me again giving me a Friday night off. Woohoo. Less hours does mean less money though, now only doing about 40 hours this week instead of the original rostered 60, but hey, i need some nights out. Work Saturday night and all day/night sunday.......

Once again, a fair time between entry's. More time in reality than on the computer i guess. Work is still going well, more hours and more responsibility. It's becoming a good learning experience. Working weekends and those standard hospitality hours my life has moved away from the regular routine that I found myself in for so long here in Melbourne in the past. Work is also my social life most of the time. I do miss hanging with my usual mates on Friday, Saturday nights. But I guess everyone has gone there own ways of late anyway. Not like it was a few years ago. Always the single, carefree one, perhaps this way of living suits me for now. Still when the oppurtunity comes to pursue something more solid and the chance to settle, well, I'd probably take it

Having the new upstairs area open at the pub now brings a fresh new vibe to the place. Cocktail lounge, music/entertainment room, outdoor rooftop bar. With the addition of live music it's helping me get back into my passion....

It's my Birthday today. Monday......

Twenty Six years of searching.....

I spent the morning and arvo doing whatever. Watching TV, listening to music. Went out to do a bit of shopping and spend money on myself. Found some great bargains and cheap clothing. Subway for lunch. Love that stuff..........

Dinner tonight with all the family at the Old England, including most of Dad's side. Great meal and a few wines....

New Years Eve at the Terminus. All the crew I work with.....

I took this photo almost a year ago. In the small park across the road from where I worked/lived for many months. It's one of my favourites....

I had last Saturday night off. Planned to go out somewhere different but still managed to end up spending all night at the Termy. That's where all my mates wanted to be. The place was going off and was actually a good night. Two new favourite drinks have developed recently. Canadian Club and dry.. and Jagermeister......

Ah, Christmas time. Consumer heaven. Spent time today at the Shopping centres looking for pressies, to get it all out of the way. It's good to look around and stumble across things you wouldn't have thought of. Still, it's easier and I guess I prefer to know what to get beforehand and just go into the shop and get it. Ran into people i knew as I was wondering around.

Watched Red Dragon tonight. Was good to watch it again after seeing the original not long back. The similarities and differences. Still not sure which version I like better... Oh and the Italian Job is another great film I saw recently. Will have to go and get the original version of that now.....

And checked out the Chrissie lights down at the Boulavard in Ivanhoe as well tonight. Some people really go all out. It's great.. And soooooooooo many people walking the street or driving along in their cars to check it all out. Real Christmas spirit, the street was a buzz......
Speaking of which, my first festive season home in a few years now. It's a good feeling. To spend it with my friends and family again as opposed to be on the other side of the world. Looking forward to the next week.... Sometimes though I wish i was 10 years old again. It seemed so much more exciting back then. Looking at all the young families and kids tonight I remembered what it was like for me.....

6:30am Sunday morning. Work over for another weekend... Too wired to sleep so I'll think I'll nod off to a DVD in my room.....

It's officially silly season, last night soooo many merry drunken people celebrating the end of the year. Intoxicated beyond any level of normality. People wern't just drunk they were totally fucked!!! Parlty our fault I guess for letting them get that way, despite cutting so many people off. You see a different perspective working behind the bar. I think shit am I ever like that? Surely not!

Tonight was different. Quiet for most of the night until the always expected 1am rush when all the other pubs in the area close. It got busier and more fun. The clientel friendly and amuzing. I love dealing with Irish people!!

Finished cleaning up by 4am and myself, Nat and Marika sat at the bar drunk beer and wine and talked for a few hours. About many things that progressed onto the topic of sex. Good, interesting, carefree conversation...


Sarah, Marcus's sister came around yesterday arvo. A last minute, unorganised effort to record onto disc a Nat King Cole tune, sung by herself, to be played at her wedding today. Despite all my recording and computer equipment being totally almost fucked up (things gather dust when you're away so long), we scrapped together a rushed and last minute recording. I've missed doing all that kinda stuff........

The termy is going great! Getting more shifts working behind the bar. With its art decoish style bar and kinda retro style setup there's a good chilled out relaxed vibe to it. Tuesday nights is $5 steak night, Wednesday is bingo. Totally silly with useless cheesy prizes such as jewish kosha cooking videos. DJ on Friday and Saturday nights gets the crowds in. We are opening up a new non smoking cocktail lounge on the weekend. Just to create a slighty different vibe for those who are willing to pay more and relax. Called the departure lounge we hope it'll do well.
I worked tonight but it was rather quiet compared to what it usually is. Actaully last weekend was like that as well. Myself and Marika just cruising along behind the bar often commenting on how quiet it is. Just stuffing around chatting in between serving and cleaning. My bro and Heath came in tonight for a drink. Heath orders a scotch and as i pick up the bottle and turn it upside down to fill the glass the little nip on top fucking well slips off. "Fuck" i say, as scotch pours from the open bottle onto the bench. The others laugh and and so do I. Heath gives me the title of worlds worst barman!

I watched the final of OZ idol at a friends place on Wednesday. Guy won which wasn't a surprise. Definately has an amazing voice. Although, I was going for Shannon. The Aussie battler from the country...

A few shifts also during the week for the Family business. Then there's my spare time just chilling out at home looking for things to do. Tend to get a little bored and frustrated when im sitting around home. Been watching a few DVD's as well.

It's good to be back into the swing of things with work again. Settling down here after being away so long has definately been a bitch! Having to suddenly deal with alot of my own emotional insecurities and trying to readajust not only to the change of pace but the realisation it's time to get off my arse and make something for myself. I still miss it over there though. It was such a wonderful experience. But now there are things at home im realising are just as, if not more so, important and meaningful... I still also miss a certain girl as well...