I've taken a step back the last few days. Feeling a bit off colour i've spent the last day out in the Burbs. Peaceful. Good to not even think about My fast paced life. To ignore work. I hang out today, watched TV, read the paper and got fish n chips for dinner from the local shop... Just like it used to be. I miss it from time to time. Being home brings back alot of memory's of my growing up. Things from my past that haven't crossed my mind in some time...

Where i was then and where i though was going put alot of current things into perspective. Is it time to throw it all in and move on??


And then there's a certain concert tour that's been postponed. I'd booked my flights, organised accomodation, either hotels or with friends, and have been looking forward to only only the time off work but seeing these gigs. Music that I love so much. A break from the monotony that surely is needed at the moment.

But it's kinda selfish to get upset. The reasons for U2's postponement far more important than me getting annoyed about missing out, especially after all the anticipation.. Flights and all that have been easily fixed anyway. I'm still going to take a little holiday to Adelaide to see Aldrich.

I hope later in the year they reschedule.

As I helped my parents organise where to stay in London for their upcoming overseas trip it all came back to me. As if i was still there. Walking along the Thames on a nice day, drinking a Pint in the West End, knowing what bus to catch to get to whatever part of town. I really want to go back... That was then. A time when I couldn't see where'd I'd be right now. That didn't matter. It was all about living in the moment and sucking in every last inch of fresh air that surrounded me.

The past few years since coming back have been wonderful. Settling into a good job with good friends. But now I'm 28 and it's feels like change is due again. I need it once more as things are becoming stale. It's hard to envision in my head anything else and I don't know where I'll be in a years time. That kind of scares me.

But i know something else is out there. Something just as good. I just need to take a leap of faith.....

Another year older...
28......

My life all ahead of me now..

My party on Saturday night was alot of fun. Mind you I have severe memory loss, especially in the later hours. My friends came both new and old. Catching up with Patsy, Marburg, Alrdich and Hamo made me feel young again. As if time hadn't gone by. Must do it more often. But these days life always gets in the way.

My first post of the new year. 2006.

I've been indulging life. In work, in play.

These last few days though nice to unwind. Went to Mum and Dads for dinner then came home to an empty house where i did some work on the Terminus newsletter. Jo came home and we looked through some travel photos from both parties.
Hannah has her friends down from Sydney amd she's been partying up. Sticksy at his girlfriends place.

There's been alot of weird tension in the house lately and it's getting a little much. Although i must admit I've taken somewhat a back seat.

Current Music of choice.

Athlete - Tourist
Tim Buckley - Greetings from L.A.
Bruce Springsteen - Born to Run 20th Anniversary Edition
U2 - Live from Chicago

Early Thursday afternoon.

I sit in my extremely comfortable room with the blinds open to let the sun in. It's slightly overcast with a cool breeze. I like that. I've been working on some promo flyers for the pub since i awoke about an hour and half ago. It's about time i sat down and wrote again. It's been a fair while. My life consumed by indulgence and carefreenesss. The life of managing a pub. Sure it's still hard work and takes alot of effort and the need to be focused. It's a social job, a job that allows you to escape when need be. To be able to knock off work and have a few drinks. Always meeting people ensures the fact there's always something to do. Nowadays if i have a night at home it feels weird. Cause it seems so rare. It's nice to do every now and then just to get away from it but I become easily restless. My mind needs energy around me. Needs noise, needs distraction. The Distraction of the Terminus has been fantastic nonetheless. We are a close family now. Spending so much time working and playing together.....

But sometimes i wish i could wind down for a while and start to enjoy the silence more.

I work again tonight. In the meantime I'll catch up with Theresa for a coffee and just potter about doing other odds and ends.

I'm off to QLD on Saturday, four days off work and I decided to get away from my life here, even if for just a brief moment. To get some sun, avoid the pubs and relax. Refocus.

I'm going through alot of things from years back. Old music, things i'd recorded/mixed....Pieces of writing....

When i was younger i had an idea of what I wanted to do with my life. Well some idea anyway, I was never totally sure. Moreso. never motivated enough to really follow through. Now once again I'm thinking of what to do. I love the pubs, don't get me wrong. But is their longevity in that kind of Lifestyle???? It's fun but i guess I also want passion. The ability to create something for myself. I dunno....
Here I am writing things once again. Getting my thoughts out.

Summer is upon us. It's a time when life seems that much more better.

Think I'll go get something to eat.....

My recent trip to Bali was much needed and most memorable. More so in the sense of just being able to get the fuck out of here for a while and have some summer during winter. It's a different world over there.

It's so easy for us to fall asleep in the comort of our own freedom. Our own lives.
Today the world comes together for what is probably the most single important cause of our generation.

Bob Geldof organised Live Aid 20 years ago to help raise money for Africa. It was a success and raised squilions. But then you learn this is what Africa pays back every month in debt reperations to the Western world. Today Live 8 is here to raise one voice. To let the world know...

Make Poverty History!

live8

Borat is coming to the big screen!!

Jagshemash, Pepsi Max!

Feels like a good time to finally sit down and write again...

Winter, cold but the suns out. Just sat on my balcony with a ciggarette and my thoughts. Thinking of my direction. My purpose..

Work is going pretty good, now managing the bar with Nat taking on the General managers role. Alot more work to do now and I spend a great deal of time there. The staff are great and the people that come in are just as good. It's what keeps me there.

Living where i do in Kew is nice. Having the main room with private balcony and ensuite gives me the privacy and escape i need from time to time. It's my own little sanctuary.

I guess I'm lucky to have what I have. The friends I have I keep close to me. My life is pretty good. Still I search for something more

I hung out with her again last night. Was fun. We've developed a close friendship over the months. Still I yearn for something more?

Have a friend coming down from Brisbane for the weekend. This also means a weekend of No work!! Yippeeee.

Music on todays rotation..

Radiohead - How to disapear completely
Alex Loyd - My way home
U2 - Running to Stand Still
Art of Fighting - Give me tonight
The Waifs - London Still

IT'S VERTI...GO