So I finally got internet connection put on ma brand new computer in ma room. Gives me something else to do when I'm here.

It's Valentines day today, something that I've never really gotten into. Probably cause i've always been single. Was in a melloncolly mood all day. Hard to motivate. All the flower shops that i drove past during the day were busy. People in the shopping centre carrying roses and whatever. And me so not part of that...

My birthday celebrations on Saturday turned out to be well received by others and mostly well enjoyed by me. Afterall that night was all about me!! The turkishplace for dinner put on a good job. We had a room upstairs that, as we arrived, had tables filled with all these different kinds of platters. So Yum..... Mains were great and the $15 all you can drink option for 2 1/2 hours ensured that all the boys got ratshit. Trent didn't last much past dinner and Dave put on a strip show for the hens night in the next room. Good form guys!!

Progressed to Polly, then onto nightcat then as most people went home the few remaining headed to Barry's for some late night cheese dancing.....

Think I'll chill to some music....

Im back at mum and dad's in Tempe today for a little while. Don't have internet access at home yet.....

What to say? where to start?...... I need some inspiration in my life once more. Something to keep me creatively challenged maybe. A goal, a journey......

Home life is good with a few big changes. Chris and Lauren moved out not to long ago leaving the two smaller smaller rooms to be filled. Hannah and Jo have moved in. I figured getting two girls might bring a bit of balance into the house. I knew them both beforehand so I felt comfortable having come in. With Dyson on his way out soon I'm more surrounded by female company most of the time now. It's a little weird and may take some getting used to. Kinda feel like the odd one out sometimes to. Girls get together, do their own thing. I am looking foward to Sticksy moving in soon.

We now have a new loungeroom and the place is looking much more homely and cleaner. Girls will do that....... I myself have spent alot of time cleaning up. The amount of leftover shit piled up in the garage and wedge was ridiculous. Spent a day with dad sorting it all out and by the end we had a truckload of rubbish to take to the tip.

Been to the beach a few times, just down to black rock when the weather and time off has allowed for it. A swim, a read of a book, and some sun. Off to Qld soon as well. Time to get away.

Love life.. Confusing...

Current music that's on rotation.

Albums
U2 - How to Dismantle an Atomic Bomb
Xavier Rudd - Solice
Ben Harper - Diamonds on the inside
Anything Alex Loyd
Anything Jack Johnston

Songs
U2 - Miracle Drug
Starsailer - Four to the floor (Original version not that remix thing)
Ben Harper - With my own two hands
Xavier Rudd - Shelter
Alex Loyd - My way home

A new year! Hopefully means a fresh start in a positive direction..... Things feel like there changing once more. I need some kind of structure again and have a goal that i can start to work towards. Have had many thoughts and discussions with others in what I should do, what road i should take.

The others are moving out of Walmer St soon. Things will change at home to.

Work has been busy, New Years was a great night although extremely busy meant we didn't get much chance to break. Had alot of friends there though and the crowd was all in a great mood. We raised a few thousand dollars for the Tsamani victims to. It shows that people really will dig deep when it's needed.

The last two days have been benders, socialising with friends and bar hoping all over the place. The Espy on Saturday and a triple Bill of the geebung, Depot and Bimbo's yesterday.....;.

Christmas was wonderful. A day with the family that had a special feeling about it. Parents house in Templstowe during the day with Dad's side of the family. Mum put alot of effort into cooking and we ate up a storm. The food continued that night at Deb's for Mum's side. A few drinks but not to many. It was more about the kids this year. My cousin's little ones running around as excited and hyper as we were all those years ago. Gave it a more spcial touch.

I caught up with her again last night. I miss spending time with her, wishing that maybe things worked out different....

With the devestation in Asia at the moment my problems are irrelevent. Something that couldn't be avoided, so many lost or homeless. Maybe this will bring to light to the Western world the need to pay more attention to the issues facing the third world......

So much been going on in my life lately.

The Spring racing carnival was memorable...Derby day Beautiful with oh so many people. Caught up with old friends, mingled with new. Home 7am the next morning. Cup day the weather was shit and it started out with heavy rain and wind. Put a dampner on things before i headed to the warmth of the members then down into the birdcage for free grog and food. Cheers Dyson.....

What else?

Work... Yeah still there, was good to have a few days off over the racing carnival. Still enjoy it though despite some moments of question. Saturday night was a crazy one. Really busy. In my year of working there never have i dealt with so much shit from customers.

Love life?? Yeah about that. Not a great deal going on. There's a hint of it but I can't seem to get it off the ground.

Catch up on stuff day today...

Oooh ooohh new u2 album. I always swore i'd wait until it's official release this time, even if it did hit the net early. I caved............. I'll still buy it when it's released of course but I do have a my own copy already.
First impressions??? Hit me harder than All that you can't leave behind firstdid. It's an Edge record in the sense of a return to his atmospheric, melodic and stand out guitar. Bono's words are great. The songs are anthemic, beautiful and definately resonate something big. I love it!

What a Brilliant day. Sun. Everyone in a good mood.

Went for a run along the yarra near home.

Spent ages cleaning and organising shit at home.

Felt like staying clear of the pubs.

Ti's the day to vote for the Federal Election and like every other Australian I made my way to a polling station to cast my vote, to voice my opinion. Must admit though, I'm not heavily Political and I don't have an overly keen interest so my vote wasn't really well researched or thought out. The best bit of it was returning to my old Primary school and having so many lost memories come flooding back. From the layout of my classroom, playground etc to when I used to run around the oval or kick the footy during playtime. That part of my life seems like a dream but just seeing it all again reasurred me it was real.

The new place is ace. I've really spent a decent amount of time arranging my room and getting ideas. Either that or it's nice to come home from work and relax to some music or tele. (We just got Foxtel Digital put it and I wonder if it's worth it. It just induces more mindless channel flicking) It's great to have the company to.

Moved outta home. With the exception of my 18 months in the Uk, this is the first time I've lived away from the confinds of the parents. Was never in a hurry to move out but now im so glad I have. A cool room in a cool place in Kew, only a short walk from work. The people I live with are great. Already I'm having domesticated ideas on how to improve, do up the place.n It's a new found sense of freedom and responsibility.

The new single hit worldwide radio yesterday. I burnt my own copy and have been listening to it non stop. What a track! 

I always enjoy going out to the airport. The place where people are either leaving things behind for a while or are returning with a sense or renewed freshness in their life.

We picked up Damo after his 6 months in London. As we stood near the barrier in the International arrivals section waiting it occured to me that here is a place or even a moment when life seems perfect. Where everything seems to dissapear, where people are reunited and the world, it's problems, fears, doubts whatever not an issue. Everyone happy. I recall some girl coming through those doors, seeing her boyfreind standing right near me, and just rushing into his arms where they embraced each other tightly for what seemed like ages. A good 5 minutes with no words, no conversation. I don't know why exactly i'm writing on this but i guess i was somewhat taken back by it..... Corny???

Anyway, as Damo came out I said rather loudly 'There he is'. Other people looked at me, it didn't matter. Great to see him again. Shaved head and tanned. Overseas travel creates change in a person. Both physical and emotional. I should know, I've been there, done that.

We went out last out in what turned out to be a huge and fun night. Feels like a while since I've had that. All his mates and myself hitting it hard at a few places around town. Barry's at the end of the night was a nice top off. I was cynical in going there at first thinking it would be crap. I cut loose and had a ball. Rather drunk to. We ended up at a freinds place in East Brunswick at stupid o'clock, waking the poor girl up so we all had a place to crash. Few hours sleep on the fold out couch then eventually made it home this afternoon just in time for Fathers day Lunch.

I've been the cleaning lady at work all week, and again this week coming. The plus side is that it gives me a more normal/structured working week and has given me the weekend off.


I watched a great movie tonight, one i can't believe i'd never seen before. 'One Flew over the Cuckoo's nest' with Jack Nicolson.

What else?? I've got a lot of choices/decisions to make at the moment. The need/desire to move out to somewhere else. The restlessness with wanting to do something more with my life career wise. What exactly to do? When and where to do it. Do i continue to ride the wave or should i take a bit more charge and swim through it.

I'm listening to U2's Pop as i write this. A slightly different version i made up that includes the reworked /remixed vesions of songs that featured as singles or on the Best Of album. I prefer it this way than the original version actually.

'And it looks like the sun, but feels like rain. And there's heat in the sun to see us through the rain'

Other albums of choice lately.
The Panics, 'A House on a street in a town where I'm from'...
Brilliant!!

New album out November 22, the first single 'Vertigo' released to radio in a matter of weeks, another world tour next year. Im excited. I saw them last time round in London, Birmingham and Dublin. It was an amazing experience. How I'd love to do it again.