Trying to write again isn't easy when lately my creative juices have been blocked. I finished my course ( Cet IV in graphic design) just before Christmads and it went well. Having goals and direction again was reassuring and I think I applied myself to the best of my ability. But since then I'd hoped my motivation would would stay up. Instead it's been a somewhat weird comedown, going from every day filled up with things to do to now over summer awaking with no set routine or task. Pondering around the house with what to do next. Still a few nights at the Termi but it's not enough. Looking for more work again in either graphic design or just another hospo job to pay the bills has not been easy. Financially times are tough and i crave so much more out of my life. I do need change as I've been saying for a long time now. Im 30 and I've rarely in my life had to put myself out there, sell myself to the world to find my direction. And yes I find that hard. So we'll see. Something WILL come soon.

Despite monets of boredom I have been doing lots lately to. Having a couple of German backpackers stay with us last week enabled me to play host and see Melbourne in a different light. Going to Museums, parks wherever. Days down the beach swimming. Taking photographs with my SLR. I know that im my happiness when things seem the simpliest. No excess baggage, pressure or restrictions..

Recently I found out one of my oldest and dearest mates is very sick. I found this out one afternoon via facebook. Reading messages and hearng the news via this meduim was very surreal and strange. Not that I'm complaining about it, I guess thats the way the world is these days. I havent talked to Hamo since but rather opted speaking to his mates and sending him a text message. All my issues really are petty and insignificant and I wish I could do more to help but my thoughts are always there. Get welll soon mate!