So much been going on in my life lately.

The Spring racing carnival was memorable...Derby day Beautiful with oh so many people. Caught up with old friends, mingled with new. Home 7am the next morning. Cup day the weather was shit and it started out with heavy rain and wind. Put a dampner on things before i headed to the warmth of the members then down into the birdcage for free grog and food. Cheers Dyson.....

What else?

Work... Yeah still there, was good to have a few days off over the racing carnival. Still enjoy it though despite some moments of question. Saturday night was a crazy one. Really busy. In my year of working there never have i dealt with so much shit from customers.

Love life?? Yeah about that. Not a great deal going on. There's a hint of it but I can't seem to get it off the ground.

Catch up on stuff day today...

Oooh ooohh new u2 album. I always swore i'd wait until it's official release this time, even if it did hit the net early. I caved............. I'll still buy it when it's released of course but I do have a my own copy already.
First impressions??? Hit me harder than All that you can't leave behind firstdid. It's an Edge record in the sense of a return to his atmospheric, melodic and stand out guitar. Bono's words are great. The songs are anthemic, beautiful and definately resonate something big. I love it!

What a Brilliant day. Sun. Everyone in a good mood.

Went for a run along the yarra near home.

Spent ages cleaning and organising shit at home.

Felt like staying clear of the pubs.

Ti's the day to vote for the Federal Election and like every other Australian I made my way to a polling station to cast my vote, to voice my opinion. Must admit though, I'm not heavily Political and I don't have an overly keen interest so my vote wasn't really well researched or thought out. The best bit of it was returning to my old Primary school and having so many lost memories come flooding back. From the layout of my classroom, playground etc to when I used to run around the oval or kick the footy during playtime. That part of my life seems like a dream but just seeing it all again reasurred me it was real.

The new place is ace. I've really spent a decent amount of time arranging my room and getting ideas. Either that or it's nice to come home from work and relax to some music or tele. (We just got Foxtel Digital put it and I wonder if it's worth it. It just induces more mindless channel flicking) It's great to have the company to.

Moved outta home. With the exception of my 18 months in the Uk, this is the first time I've lived away from the confinds of the parents. Was never in a hurry to move out but now im so glad I have. A cool room in a cool place in Kew, only a short walk from work. The people I live with are great. Already I'm having domesticated ideas on how to improve, do up the place.n It's a new found sense of freedom and responsibility.

The new single hit worldwide radio yesterday. I burnt my own copy and have been listening to it non stop. What a track! 

I always enjoy going out to the airport. The place where people are either leaving things behind for a while or are returning with a sense or renewed freshness in their life.

We picked up Damo after his 6 months in London. As we stood near the barrier in the International arrivals section waiting it occured to me that here is a place or even a moment when life seems perfect. Where everything seems to dissapear, where people are reunited and the world, it's problems, fears, doubts whatever not an issue. Everyone happy. I recall some girl coming through those doors, seeing her boyfreind standing right near me, and just rushing into his arms where they embraced each other tightly for what seemed like ages. A good 5 minutes with no words, no conversation. I don't know why exactly i'm writing on this but i guess i was somewhat taken back by it..... Corny???

Anyway, as Damo came out I said rather loudly 'There he is'. Other people looked at me, it didn't matter. Great to see him again. Shaved head and tanned. Overseas travel creates change in a person. Both physical and emotional. I should know, I've been there, done that.

We went out last out in what turned out to be a huge and fun night. Feels like a while since I've had that. All his mates and myself hitting it hard at a few places around town. Barry's at the end of the night was a nice top off. I was cynical in going there at first thinking it would be crap. I cut loose and had a ball. Rather drunk to. We ended up at a freinds place in East Brunswick at stupid o'clock, waking the poor girl up so we all had a place to crash. Few hours sleep on the fold out couch then eventually made it home this afternoon just in time for Fathers day Lunch.

I've been the cleaning lady at work all week, and again this week coming. The plus side is that it gives me a more normal/structured working week and has given me the weekend off.


I watched a great movie tonight, one i can't believe i'd never seen before. 'One Flew over the Cuckoo's nest' with Jack Nicolson.

What else?? I've got a lot of choices/decisions to make at the moment. The need/desire to move out to somewhere else. The restlessness with wanting to do something more with my life career wise. What exactly to do? When and where to do it. Do i continue to ride the wave or should i take a bit more charge and swim through it.

I'm listening to U2's Pop as i write this. A slightly different version i made up that includes the reworked /remixed vesions of songs that featured as singles or on the Best Of album. I prefer it this way than the original version actually.

'And it looks like the sun, but feels like rain. And there's heat in the sun to see us through the rain'

Other albums of choice lately.
The Panics, 'A House on a street in a town where I'm from'...
Brilliant!!

New album out November 22, the first single 'Vertigo' released to radio in a matter of weeks, another world tour next year. Im excited. I saw them last time round in London, Birmingham and Dublin. It was an amazing experience. How I'd love to do it again. 

Often I'm to lazy to even write anything but fuck it, here goes another ramble.

Perth was awesome, my first time to the other side of the country and a good break away from things here.  Flying over business class i felt kinda special and made the most of that dangerous thing called free alcohol.  Well it's free when your on the plane anyway, the extra cost of the seat would cover that but hey, i got frequent flyers.  50ml shots of chivas regal had me slightly struggling to get my words out by the end.  And being stuck in a plane seat isn't all that great a way to get silly anyway.

Staying out in Sterling with Simon's dad and sister was nice.  Although it meant we couldn't really cut loose and have the same holiday effect as when your in a hotel it was nice to have a place to relax in.  The weekend was big, Friday and Saturday in Northbridge and a Sunday session down at Cottasloe( spelling?) .  Did the touristy thing to the remainder of the time, checked out Freeo including the prison, the ferry over to Rottnest and a 3 or so hour bikeride.  Was nice....  Came back to Melbs all refreshed.  Been working most of the time since but love it still.  Weekdays and then the night shifts on a weekend.

Wheel of beer last night after I knocked off work,  with Nat and a few others.  $5 a spin and a plethora of tasty beer prizesd to be won.   From 3 spins I won about 6 pints.  By midnight it was time to leave, intoxicated and a fun night.

Watched a really good film tonight. One of those films that really draws you in. 'Bloody Sunday' is a re-creation of the events that took place in Derry, Northern Ireland, January 30th. 1972.

I was in Northern Ireland back in February last year and got to know more about the countries history. A subject that has always interested me. Upon watching the film and in particular one of the bonus documentries that showed where it took place, I had to run and look at my photo's. Recognising the scenery instantly.

I awoke this morning feeling not to bad, considering another night out. I didn't try to prove anything last night by consuming lots of the hardcore stuff at a quick rate. There wasn't any need.

After a wonderful dinner with Mum and Dad in Carlton i was supposed to meet Aldrich at Puggs around 9 for birthday drinks. I get driven there after dinner but decide to call to make sure they'd arrived. Still at home... Wasn't going to wait in that place by myself. Not my kinda scene anyway.... A large group of old freinds were congretated in Brunswick St. First time in a while all together. The crowd i used to hang with and shared many beers with week after week back in the day. Decided to start there instead with the intention of heading on later on. Was great seeing everyone, didn't leave 'em. Old days relived almost. In a smallish bar, Labour in Vain we drunk jug after jug and talked meaningful shit all night. The remaining few progressed to Polly at the tail end of the night and ran into more freinds. The Godfather Cocktail was yum. None of this juicy, fruity rubbish. Strong alcohol baby, how they should be drunk. The Termy is on the way home. Yes I went there again at the very end for a quick drink.. Maccas, cab, home...

Weather is an easy topic to bring up but hey, it was a bloody wonderful day today. Drove to Rob's place in East Melbourne then we walked into town, checking out a few shops in Bourke St Mall. Always people. A far cry from good 'ol Tempe town.

There's a movie dad has been meaning to see for a little while now so with an oppurtunity to do so we went to the Jam Factory in Sth Yarra to catch 'The Day After Tomorrow'. Looked good on the big screen but I won't hurry to see it again. Coffee at a little cafe afterwards followed by a souva in Bridge Rd. Good just hanging out with Dad....

On the way there i drove past the pub where she works and saw her in the window as i made a quick glance. Ran into her last night to, we didn't even say a word to each other. I tried to smile and make contact as she walked past but we looked the other way. Awkard and weird.. Bullshit if you ask me... It used to be good..... I never meant to react the way I did and make the comment i did, I'd take it back if i could. I should've just held my breath, but being blown off, ignored then subtly having it rubbed in my face was a little painful. A reaction only natural?...

I don't mind that things didn't work out. I just don't like ending these sort of things on bad terms. It's always hard when your the dump/ee as oppossed to the dump/er. And even though I always new when we were hanging out that we had nothing or little in common it's still just a little annoying. When your looking for something real but it seems most of the time the fake, plastic short term is all you get and all you can take comfort in and even that doesnt last.

Hows that song go i so love?..
"This one goes out to the one I love, this goes one goes out to the one I left behind.. Another Prop to occupy my time"

I then thought about someone special tonight from my past. Still wonder if only.

My that was a deep and personal little vent session. Does this ramble belong here?? And now for something completely different.

Im going to Perth on Thursday. Bring it on Baby.